The begining

Ok.....It is time for me to get serious.  I can't make it to ww meetings.  I need to have daily accountability and I think writing this blog will actually help me.

The problem:  I have a very indulgent mind set.  If I am not present and deliberate in my thinking with food then it just gets out of control.   I only need to lose about 15-25lbs.  I know that is not a lot, but I know that I will feel much better about myself if I blog about my weightloss.  I have to say that for the exception of chocolate....I actually already eat very healthy and I exercise.  But I also eat a lot of healthy food.  I indulge.   I feel like since after Christmas I have been a bit blue...a mild depression...I know loosing weight isn't the sole key to happiness......but at least when I am feeling upset about something I won't think....."and I am fat too"...boohoohoo.

It is really time for me to get on board with an all around healthy mind set.  I yo-yo way too much.  If I feel like I am not doing a good job then I completely let it go.  So this blog is where I am going to let it all out.....I am going to imagine that I have hundreds of readers rooting me on.....I have to be acountable and I can't let you guys down.

What I want to accomplish:

I don't know about the ins and outs of this blog yet.....I think that I want to blog 5 days maybe S-TH  and come up with what I did well, a positive affirmation or inspiring quote.  Write something I learn.  One weekly weigh in.....I think I want that to be Thursday.  Talk about a goal for the next day or what I can do better.

I really don't feel like weighing in right now because I ate Chocolate cake tonight.  I am going to weigh in and take measurements on Thursday.  I think I will remeasure once a month.

My goals:

1.  Lose 20lbs. (I would like to be around 130.....129 would be great!! :)
2.  Be a size 8 (I have junk in my trunk and that junk never seems to be smaller than a size 8)
3.  Get control.
4.  Have a healthy outlet to loose weight.
5.  Love my body and be grateful for this beautiful creation

My Goals for Monday:
1.  Drink my 8 glasses of water.  Only indulge in one soda (club soda w/ juice)
2.  Plan a healthy dinner
3.  Snack on veggies.
Tomorrow is a holiday so things are a little out of sorts....