2 in 1

So this will be two posts in one because I didn't write on Friday.  And you could probably guess why.  Oh man.  I was up in weight.....142.0 even higher than when I started.  I am so discouraged.  When I knew I didn't do well, I lost motivation.  The week I lost I was super motivated.  Hard things were the superbowl sunday.....Also I felt extremely hungry this week.   I was SO hungry all the time.  Famished.  I think I didn't plan my meals well and found myself famished and then eating so fast and way too much.  So that was a problem. Also, I exercised more.  And Girl Scout cookies are everywhere.   I don't want to have to eliminate treats....but if I can't just eat one serving size then I think I will have to do something drastic to change.

I have also been feeling hungry, tired, and depressed.  I was wondering if I had some kind of thyroid problem.  I also don't sleep enough.  I know that is HUGE on my problems in life.  I just hate to go to bed (I love to sleep but I want to do fun stuff at night).  I also need to really improve on taking my multi-vitamin.  

I want to be careful not to be too hard on myself.  This takes me down the road of depression....which is exactly where I went this week.  My healthy journ isn not just about loosing the last 10lbs.....it is about making healthier choices body mind and spirit.  Learning to love and appreciate this body of mine that I was so grateful to come to earth to get.  There are so many things to do to take care of myself that the day doesn't seem to allow for all of it.

Things I did well this week

1.  Ran a 10K!!!  I did the mermaid race this week.  Wasn't in perfect shape, but hey......I ran the whole way with my friend Amber!!
2.  Exercised

Goals for this week

1. Get ready for bed 10:30 be in bed by 11
2. Take a multi-vitamin
3. Be mindful of portion size.


Affirmations

I love and approve of myself
I am too big a gift to the world to waste my time on self-pity and sadness
I believe in my ability to unlock the way and set myself free.
I am more than good enough and I get better every day.
All that I need will come to me at the right time and place in this life.

Beginning week 3

So today was a tough one.  It was super bowl Sunday.  I had really prepped myself in my head to be prepared and to make healthy choices.  My brother in law made these really awesome ribs and there was keylime pie.  Need I say more?

Well I know from experience that you can have a bad day but still have a good week, so that is what I am going for.

This week goals:

I want to continue with portion control.
Exercise more
Take a multivitamin everyday.

I know I can do this.  I did it last week.  I found this.  It will be my mantra for the week.

Week 2 Results

Good news!  I am happy to report that I weigh:

140.4.  I lost 1.4 lbs!!  That is a huge success!  I am more than thrilled and it makes me want to keep trucken' on and makes me feel like this little goal of mine is so doable.  Conciencous eating is everything for me.  I am not trying to be perfect nor do I feel like I want to write every detail out on paper of what I am eating.  For now, paying attention to portion size, eating healthy and controling my sugar intake.....is everything for me.

Bravo
This week I did well.  I would say Bravo for just eating a little dessert everynight and being satisfied with that.  Being mindful and mesuring out things and controling portion size.

Improve
It was a stressful week, because I was planning Charly's 7th birthday party.  I totally let that consume me.  It was an awesome party.....but I had to let exercise go this week.  So I will be back on track with that this coming week.

Affrimations:

I can do this.  Weight just falls off of my body.  It is easy for me to make healthy choices.  I crave healthy food.  I know when to say enough.

Another week

Alright.......so posting every night just isn't a reality for me.....at all.  So I am going for once...maybe twice a week.  I think Sunday night is good because....I can set goals and get in a good mind set.  Thursday is good for weigh ins a Bravos.  So here are my stats from thursday:

weight: 141.8  (ok not way as bad as I had thought).  So that leaves me wanting to loose 11.8.

That is SO doable.  And I CAN DO HARD THINGS.  It is that last 10lbs that is a killer.

What I did good last week:

I spent the week becoming aware of how much I ate.  I think because I only have 12 lbs to loose I really just want to focus on small changes.  I really hate writing everything down I eat....so I am not going to do that just yet.  I think by doing this I will be more conscientious of what I eat.

I exercised

I ate really healthy foods.

Goals for this week:

I am going to focus on portion size at dinner.  I am going to measure my dinner and eat a serving size.  I might be a little hungery.....

Try eating a healthy snack everyday at 4pm.

I can do this.  I love my body and I want to take good care of it.  I am a healthy fit person.  My clothes feel so good on my body.  I am beautiful.  Weight melts off my body so easily.  It is easy for me to make good choices concerning food.  Healthy food taste so good.

Thank you everyone for you support.  It has been so amazing.....I continue on this journey because of you....I haven't given up because of you....yes 3 days and going strong becasue of you. And still no followers :)

Anyways,  today I made some really concenious notes about how I eat.  I eat a lot.  I had two lunches and two dinners.  LOL.....ok I know that sounds terrible. But I am HUNGRY.  From past expirence I have learn that I have to bite the bullet and shrink my stomach.  I really ate healthy today.  Quinoa, salmon, guacamole, brown rice, broccoli tofu stirfry, greek yogurt.....all healthy....but too much.

I think I will start next monday really keeping track of how much I eat and stay within my points (I am a seasoned ww member).  It will take me a week or two and then my stomach will shrink and I will be used to eating less.

Tried a new tofu recipe tonight......it was a hit with my fam!!!  I will post it tomorrow.  Ive got lots to do tonight.

Day 2

Greetings to all my loyal followers!!  Yes, you....all 0 of you.  But I am not going to let that discourage me.  Nope, I am just going to add a 1 and a couple of 0's.  So 1,000.  wow.  And it is only my second post.

I know you have all been hanging on by a thread at how my healthy journey went today.  So here it is. Since it was a holiday, we didn't have to take the kids to school so I was able to get up early and run 3.3 miles.  It felt really good.  I ran really slow.  But steady.  I felt really proud of my self.

The good:

1.  I ran 3 miles.
2.  Walked all around the zoo with kids
3.  ate a healthy breakfast & dinner
4.  was able to stop myself on a binge of kettle corn.

I was more conscientious of what I was eating.  That is probably my ultimate goal.  I loathe counting calories and writing down what I eat.  Although, I need to do that for a while.  I really just want to make each bite conscientious.

Tomorrow:

BE CONSCIENTIOUS 
 tomorrows challenges are after I pick up the kids we go to gymnastics and then quickly home before I am off to church activity.  So lots of opportunity to be starving.  I always overeat when I am starving.  I will plan on bringing a healthy snack and having dinner almost prepared before I leave.

I am craving something right now to eat.  I am not hungry.....but i just feel like indulging.  I am going to go have a little something healthy.  And then be very proud of myself.  I will write tomorrow how I avoided stuffing my face with chocolate cake.

The begining

Ok.....It is time for me to get serious.  I can't make it to ww meetings.  I need to have daily accountability and I think writing this blog will actually help me.

The problem:  I have a very indulgent mind set.  If I am not present and deliberate in my thinking with food then it just gets out of control.   I only need to lose about 15-25lbs.  I know that is not a lot, but I know that I will feel much better about myself if I blog about my weightloss.  I have to say that for the exception of chocolate....I actually already eat very healthy and I exercise.  But I also eat a lot of healthy food.  I indulge.   I feel like since after Christmas I have been a bit blue...a mild depression...I know loosing weight isn't the sole key to happiness......but at least when I am feeling upset about something I won't think....."and I am fat too"...boohoohoo.

It is really time for me to get on board with an all around healthy mind set.  I yo-yo way too much.  If I feel like I am not doing a good job then I completely let it go.  So this blog is where I am going to let it all out.....I am going to imagine that I have hundreds of readers rooting me on.....I have to be acountable and I can't let you guys down.

What I want to accomplish:

I don't know about the ins and outs of this blog yet.....I think that I want to blog 5 days maybe S-TH  and come up with what I did well, a positive affirmation or inspiring quote.  Write something I learn.  One weekly weigh in.....I think I want that to be Thursday.  Talk about a goal for the next day or what I can do better.

I really don't feel like weighing in right now because I ate Chocolate cake tonight.  I am going to weigh in and take measurements on Thursday.  I think I will remeasure once a month.

My goals:

1.  Lose 20lbs. (I would like to be around 130.....129 would be great!! :)
2.  Be a size 8 (I have junk in my trunk and that junk never seems to be smaller than a size 8)
3.  Get control.
4.  Have a healthy outlet to loose weight.
5.  Love my body and be grateful for this beautiful creation

My Goals for Monday:
1.  Drink my 8 glasses of water.  Only indulge in one soda (club soda w/ juice)
2.  Plan a healthy dinner
3.  Snack on veggies.
Tomorrow is a holiday so things are a little out of sorts....